I have days when my soul feels heavy and dark. Days, when I don’t seem to see the light that technically might be all around me. Those days are difficult to get through, difficult to even start, because why even get up if there won’t be any light today?
I have many friends who at times feel or have felt like that. Some of them might be going through a difficult time in their lives and the weight of their circumstances bears down on them. For some of them, their darkness might be a diagnosed illness that leaves them with little hope of ever getting better. Some of them might not even had it diagnosed, and the weight of the unknown keeps them in that dark place. Some of them might not know why this darkness continues to close in on them. And some of them might go through difficult circumstances that continues to drive them to that dark place.
And then there are those who are specifically reminded of this darkness during this season. This season called Christmas. And especially this year, the infamous 2020.
Maybe you are one of them.
Sometimes, I am one of them.
I don’t have a diagnosed illness. And never in a million years do I want to say that I know anyone else’s circumstances or darkness. But I know my own darkness and I have carried the weight of it. Some days, some seasons might be better than others.
Maybe today is a better day. Maybe today is a darker day.
My heart aches for the many people that tell me about their darkness, their difficult circumstances. The world seems heavier when I hear their stories, their descriptions of what they feel like, and of how the heavy is weighing down on them.
I wish I could make it go away. I wish I could be that light for you, and just somehow shine into your darkness. I wish that words like these would make it all go away.
I know they don’t. I know that nothing I will ever do or say will make it go away.
I could sit there with you in your darkness and maybe that will show you that somewhere out there, there is light. However, I can’t give you that light.
But there is someone that can.
He. Can.
The One who is light can.
Jesus.
Jesus is light, and He can.
He is the place where you will get a little relief of your heavy and dark.
He is the only place that can give you a light that will break through your darkness. He is the only one that will make your darkness lighter.
He understands the importance of light. In fact, it’s the first thing He created.
He separated darkness from light. (Genesis 1:3)
Did you catch that?
He separates. darkness. from. light.
That means that there is a light that is devoid of darkness, because they are two separate things. They cannot be mixed.
In this season, if it feels dark, I pray that you and I will hold on to knowing that His light is out there, and that His light shines into our darkness. Just a ray of light can be enough to give us the hope we need to walk through this darkness until His light creeps into every corner of our soul and lightens it up like we’ve never known before.
That light, we need to know more about.
(To be continued.)
