Endless Skies

I went out for a walk because it was one of those days and I just really needed to breathe and think and ask God a few questions.

I didn’t understand why He created me the way He did, why He would allow for so much pain to happen in this world, and why He doesn’t just snap His fingers and heal us when we need it – emotionally or physically.

Yeah, I had a questions. And yeah, because I know He could actually just snap His fingers and heal us.

I just really needed a break from all the ups and downs, from the circumstances that made it such a rollercoaster, some relief or timeout or something. Just for a little while. Or a long while, really.

Often it seems like discussing these things with Him on a walk helps me somehow walk off the emotions that come with them.

In the middle of such a walk, I usually find a bench somewhere because once I had walked off some of these emotions, the beauty of nature (and probably the exercise?) helps me calm down a little.

So I sat on a bench that day, a windy day, and the clouds were moving quite quickly above my head, out of my sight.

I thought about some of the passages of Scripture I had been reading in the past couple of days and the different things He is telling us through them.

And all of a sudden, Scripture seemed to become alive and speak to me:

“Your steadfast love, O Lord, extends to the heavens, your faithfulness to the clouds” (Psalm 35:5 ESV).

[That you] “may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God” (Ephesians 3:18-19 ESV)

Jesus, whispering to me, that maybe I don’t understand this pain, this suffering, and why He doesn’t just change my circumstances, but that His steadfast love extends to the heavens. His faithfulness extends to the clouds, despite what my circumstances might tell me. Somehow, He wants to show me the breadth and length and height and depth of His love for me, for everyone around me.

His love surpasses everything I will ever understand. And just like I don’t understand His love, I don’t understand some of the pain and suffering that is happening in this world, and even my life.

Just like I will never fully understand His love, I might never fully understand the answers to my questions.

But what really matters is His love, and not the answers.

What really matters is that I keep looking up to the skies and remember His goodness, remember His faithfulness, and remember His love.

Because they are greater than my questions. He is greater than my questions.

My endless questions are outreached by His endless love for me.

And that’s what matters.

So I lift up my eyes to these endless skies that day, and hopefully every day, and remember His endless love.